and realized something about myself that you don't know. When I am by myself and walk into cafes or other establishments that require me stand at the cashier and look up at a menu and tell them what I want to order, I sometimes forget that I'm supposed to be figuring out what I want as I'm standing in line because, you know, wind tunneling. And then it's my turn. And I go "Hi! How's it goin?" and they always go "Hi! I'm doing well thanks for asking! What would you like to order?" --- And that's when everything falls apart. I go, "Oh shit....", tilt my head back slightly and open my mouth and emit an "Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" to buy me some time. And if I do it for five seconds and still can't figure it out I say "Oh god I'm so sorry - Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......"
And I realized today that the other person always laughs. They always smile at this event, watching this strange but polite guy go into an animalistic thought void. And then as soon as I decide, Immediately snap back to coherent and sharpened and alert thoughts. The "thank you!" the smile, the act as nothing ever happened, the turn around and scan the establishment for an open seat and if there isn't one, walk briskly to an open slot and wait for eternity with patience
Life is funny
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