I burned through the last of that candle we bought at Walgreens and listened to Renee Sleeping on repeat as I crawled under my bed and packed all my trinkets into old shoeboxes. I found my old portfolio i hand made when I applied to my first jobs out of college. I found a folder full of old Harvard forms. I packed slowly, and opened all the books I touched and thought about all the change that's happened already. I was relaxed. I am relaxed